Haddon asked how I was and I admitted that I am not doing very well at all but added, for form’s sake:
“It gets better, right?”
“No,” he said. “Look, I loved your mother very much. She was a rare and dignified soul. When you lose someone like that, it never gets better.”
I was so grateful to him for coming out and saying it, I can’t even tell you.
I mean, I’ll be fine. I am functional. Stuff gets done. I’m busy and engaged and tired. I love my kids and my cats and my Mister.
The trouble is that I continue to love my mother in the present tense.